Holding back...~~~

Tired,dissapointed,sick,hurt,frustrated,boring,and looking forward are the few feelings i've been having lately...try blending them together and u'll be surprised to come up wif one magic word which describe my true feelings now...

Sometimes it's so hard to cover ur true feelings if there's this soemthing inside u saying,"Please open up ur heart,kick off all the barriers and stop lying to urself..."It's really hard when on one hand ur trying to forget about something totally,but on the other hand,this little things u see or hear everyday keeps on reminding u of the person...How many relly understand the meaning of just follow what your heart says...your heart is the most important organ in determining how much u fall for something or someone...What if you're going against ur heart and want to change it by doing all the 'anti-heart' things...if u do so,i can tell u that u will be experiencing a very hard time in covering ur feelings and no one can cure u...no matter how much love and care u receive from ur bestest friends,they won;'t be able to cheer u...except for this special someone...and ur heart will beat damn fast saying:"Yeah,thta's him...the person u nid is him...stop pretending..."U kno u love him and from the first day till now,u kno that no one can replace this person...but wat's holding u back???What's holding u back?????!!!!!

Complicated huh...?!?Your everyday life is as though so grey and cold and pain if ur not going to find a solution for it...and u'll lose ur appetite...and the worst thing is when u start to feel that you're losing interest in seeing ur friends...even the closest ones...no more interest in meeting up with them though u kno they care for u...feels like a knife jz stabbed into ur heart...trying to stop ur heart from distracting ur thoughts further...And u find urself constantly listening to the same song to make yourself cry,jz to make u feel better after the release...