Inner feelings...

Have you ever felt that sometimes you just don't know where to head to and all you want is just someone holding your hand tight and guide you all way through? Currently in the dilemma of something complicated, which puts me into the state of making decision, which I doesn't want to.

Finally watched Elizabethtown on Friday and it turned out not as interesting as I thought it would be. The stars- Kirsten Dunst and Orlando Bloom were the two main attraction of the movie. Other than that, I think it just wins a credit from me. Confused whether the movie is about love, family, overcoming grief or failure. It's not that bad, just that I think many things were left unsolved and the flow was kind of jumpy.

Had dinner at this Japanese restaurant- Sumo. Had their Sumo Bento, quite nice though and tried my first ever sip of Sake. Thanks to Sze! Don't really like it though. Went clubbing with the guys later at night. I have to say my clubbing experience in Melbourne has never been a good one. Not a good one as in we always need to go to at least two to three clubs before we can really get in. Supposed to go to Heat, but then, it was closed down! Clubbing at Crown is no more fun without Heat around.(Well,at least for myself) Then, the gang decided to try out this clubbing place call Seven, where they have seven different rooms of music. Only to find out that we need membership to enter. Finally, came back to the city for Billboard. It's my second time there and actually I think the place is quite nice.

Lotsa people there and as usual, we started off with a drink to warm up. Had a shot of Bacardi with them, and it was the hardest drink for me. I didn't know that it taste so strong, and since it's a shot so I wallop it at one go. Whoaaa!!!Damn strong…I can feel the flame of fire at the tip of my throat and all the adrenalin rush through my body, especially my heart. WooHHooooo...It was more than tipsy and it was even before any dance. And thanks to Joseph, Irene and I got a free Corona from him. It definitely adds to my already 't.i.p.s.y' condition. It was a great night and my first time clubbing with the guys. A ticklish feeling ran through my nerves that night, which left me in the state of yet to find out. It's really nice to be out of control sometimes coz I know I won't have lotsa chances to do that in the future. Do it while you are young and when you have the boost of energy.

Came back around 4am and as usual I just love to call cc when I'm in the half sober condition. At moments like this, the magic phrase 'I Love You' always works differently. I felt more into it and all I wanted was him beside me right at that point. A short 10 minutes talk is more than enough for him to highlight his difference. The best part was he doesn't even have to say much to make me feel better. It always makes me feel the importance of having him beside me especially when I'm in situation like that. All you need is the strong arms which you trust the most to hold you tight and secure you with a hug. It feels good when you know there's this special someone you trust the most is always there for you.

I sometimes wonder how one can rely their emotional thoughts on another person so much. It's as though your body and soul just revolves around this special someone. All you want is to have this person right in front of you. The best part is this special someone doesn't have to say a word to make your day! I'm currently indulged with this feeling.