Bitter sweet
For some reasons, I just feel that I should be honest to myself for once and make a confession. Confess about? HIM!!! Yes! The one and only guy I love and is still having a crush on!!! Some of you might have heard my constant complaints abt him. 'He's so annoying lor...He doesn't seems to care ga...Damn irritating man him...He damn ng sing muk wan...bla bla bla...!!!' Despite all the above, deep down my heart I know he's the only person who can control my emotions. As if I'm sitting on a emotional rollercoaster. I hate it though, but at the same time I know I'm loving him soooo much...
Must be wondering why am I so sentimental today? It all started yesterday...Lately I've been stressing with my uni work, research, and most of all, the production I'm involved in. I'm so particular abt the production is bcoz the people doing it are all pros and I just don't want to make a mess out of it. Especially when all the people are looking at the way you handle the job. Went home and met dear online. After a whole day of work, seeing someone who's really close to you is the best treat. Just a sight of him, and his slightest gesture was enough to make my day. Moreover, people who know him in person should know how much a sweet talker he is. I nearly cried when I talked to him yesterday. But to avoid him laughing at me, I swallowed my tears. *He's damn irritating lor...* Sometimes you might not realised until the very unexpected moment, you just can't hide. The emotions just explode!!! All I wanted was none other than his hugssss...!!!
He is the energy boost when I'm at the edge of giving up. Especially when I know he's working as hard and both of us are looking forward for my return after four years of on and off physical separation. It somehow makes me feel good and secured when I know we're looking into our future. Trying to work the most out of it. There are bitter and sweet moments. Love, is as though you're eating a 85% cocoa dark chocolate. Moments when I'm too frustrated, all I want is to have him away from me as far as possible. On the other hand, sometimes it is the sweet times where we should look into. It's really hard for me to track down another person who can make me cry so much...but at the same time, my joy comes from him...Maybe I just love the way he adores me. Girls just can't resist that. *Darn* Sometimes he just doesn't know what to do and say at the right time. It really annoys me. But at the same time, he somehow sense it and all he needs to do is to say a few words and a short msg and I'm all good with it. *It's soooooooo annoying!!!* Not annoyed abt him, but MYSELF!!! I'm constantly telling myself not to be so soft-hearted, but...Such a contradiction huh...Conclusion, I still love him veryyyyy much!!! *sshhuucckkss*!!!
Did paintings for the production settings today...OMG!!! It's sooooo damn tiring lor...Hands aching now...It's a good polish though. How can I handle my future work if I can't do the stuff now. For my future, I'll definitely get over it!!! *Walauuuu*!!!
Must be wondering why am I so sentimental today? It all started yesterday...Lately I've been stressing with my uni work, research, and most of all, the production I'm involved in. I'm so particular abt the production is bcoz the people doing it are all pros and I just don't want to make a mess out of it. Especially when all the people are looking at the way you handle the job. Went home and met dear online. After a whole day of work, seeing someone who's really close to you is the best treat. Just a sight of him, and his slightest gesture was enough to make my day. Moreover, people who know him in person should know how much a sweet talker he is. I nearly cried when I talked to him yesterday. But to avoid him laughing at me, I swallowed my tears. *He's damn irritating lor...* Sometimes you might not realised until the very unexpected moment, you just can't hide. The emotions just explode!!! All I wanted was none other than his hugssss...!!!
He is the energy boost when I'm at the edge of giving up. Especially when I know he's working as hard and both of us are looking forward for my return after four years of on and off physical separation. It somehow makes me feel good and secured when I know we're looking into our future. Trying to work the most out of it. There are bitter and sweet moments. Love, is as though you're eating a 85% cocoa dark chocolate. Moments when I'm too frustrated, all I want is to have him away from me as far as possible. On the other hand, sometimes it is the sweet times where we should look into. It's really hard for me to track down another person who can make me cry so much...but at the same time, my joy comes from him...Maybe I just love the way he adores me. Girls just can't resist that. *Darn* Sometimes he just doesn't know what to do and say at the right time. It really annoys me. But at the same time, he somehow sense it and all he needs to do is to say a few words and a short msg and I'm all good with it. *It's soooooooo annoying!!!* Not annoyed abt him, but MYSELF!!! I'm constantly telling myself not to be so soft-hearted, but...Such a contradiction huh...Conclusion, I still love him veryyyyy much!!! *sshhuucckkss*!!!
Did paintings for the production settings today...OMG!!! It's sooooo damn tiring lor...Hands aching now...It's a good polish though. How can I handle my future work if I can't do the stuff now. For my future, I'll definitely get over it!!! *Walauuuu*!!!
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